The N-word

There are certain words in our society that hurt specific races, cultures, ethnicities, and genders. There aren't really any words that hurt my race, mainly I think because I am white and I don't live in the Deep South, where most racial white insults appear. But because I am a girl, there are definitely some things that I am sensitive to. Specifically, the b-word really hurts me. I find that a lot of other people use it because it is so commonly used and easy to say. But they don't realise the meaning of it, and how some people take offence to it. For me, it makes me feel like someone who is rude and selfish and doesn't appreciate the things they have. And that is exactly the type of person I don't want to be.

Going forwards, I think that I will definitely see the n-word as something so much more powerful than I ever could have imagined a word could be. There is so much history behind it and it has caused great amounts of pain over centuries that it is hard not to see how sensitive of a word it is. I am definitely going to pay attention a lot more to how it is used in our society, in music and other cases, and try and find what certain people are trying to get out of using it. I find it very interesting the way the n-word is used in music. I always thought they said it in hip-hop just to prove that they can say it. But there is definitely a bigger meaning to it.

Do I think I have the word in me? Honestly, I don't know. I really don't think I do, just because I feel bad even writing it down, let alone saying it. But there may come a day where I am pushed so far that the power of the n-word entrances me and I use it. For me, though, there is no way of knowing because I haven't been put in that situation yet. I really hope that it never happens to me, though, especially if I use it in a negative way, because I now known the real truth behind the word, and how powerful saying it can be. For now, though, I don't think I have it in me.